at home currently
anxiety subsided because of kpins. and i managed to score enough bud to hold me over for awhile. i definitely need it for at least the next 48 hours. had a talk with dad. we both cried. i don’t know. i’ve been depressed lately, i can feel it. the past 2 or 3 weeks my anxiety has been out of control. i plan on fixing it. i plan on fixing it. or doing my best. or doing whatever it takes...
Ended up driving to my boyfriend’s house. It’s alot easier to sleep here. But still difficult. I don’t know what’s going through my head. Just anxiety. Lots of it. Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment and then work from open to close. Not pleasant. Very boring. Not looking forward to it at all. But being grown up is doing things you don’t want to do all the time, I...
i knew it would happen eventually
what to do what to do i can’t ask for help because if someone helps me out of this then i won’t learn anything it’ll just make me more codependent i’ve been okay for a good while but i haven’t had any time to myself for a good while either and the second i am alone the tiny veil dissolves and it all comes crashing on my head of course i’m not going to have a...
i'm terrible at comforting people. i'm just like
going down it.
at home currently
it’s nice to be somewhere with internet and food in the kitchen. i’m in a weird mood. i don’t know. i always am these days. i’m not bored, i’m just tired. i need vacation. or i’m ready to leave this place/job/life onto somewhere or something where i feel like what i’m doing is actually making a difference. 17, 18, 19, routine. figure i’ll take a nap...
happy because i’m clean out the shower. this week sucks balls. about to pack a laundry basket of clothes and head to lake charles, probably for the weekend. i’m bringing my laptop BUT they don’t have internet. ._. ready for a bowl and to chill the fuck out. fuck work. fuck bills. i’ll handle it tomorrow.
Things I suck at.
Sports, math, playing it cool, not being a total bitch, hiding my thoughts, censoring my brain to mouth filter, not being even a slight bitch, being an adult, oh and sports
should i stay or should i go
it’s 10:41pm ladies night tonight i could shower and put on a dress and stuff or i can stay home and get some rest which i probably need but i can never sleep at my house i can’t deciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide party ‘n bullshit
That awkward moment when you wear a disguise to...
Cod blops with the boyfriend
360 > ps3